WHY BAD TRIPS HAPPEN & How To Avoid Them (or heal)

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I'm sure most of you guys have heard me talking about all the fantastic benefits of using psychedelics for example the positive effects are not limited to spiritual awakenings you know God like religious type experiences the ability to quit other addictive harmful drugs like cigarettes and alcohol or just having an overall sense of peace in your everyday life that you didn't have but what you don't hear me commonly speak about is some of the potential that psychedelics have to cause destructive life shattering experiences I know a lot of you guys are afraid of bad trips I know there's a lot of people watching who have been scared off of psychedelics because they've had one extremely frightening event that just shook them up so hard that their life maybe was never the same maybe they feel more anxiety in their everyday life maybe increase their amount of paranoia maybe they're struggling right now maybe you're struggling right now with how to overcome a bad trip because you want to say revisit psychedelics because you think there's more to learn there well what I'm going to do with this video is try to help you guys out first of all bad trips are very easy to prevent this is why I have videos like my how-to series I cover everything from LSD mushrooms DMT even MDMA I explain to you guys how to use them safely to pretty much avoid bad trips having a trip sitter is pretty much the number one thing being in a good set and setting is also well probably more important than a trip sitter so there's a lot of things that I've already talked about in order to avoid bad trips so I do need to include that here I also need to let you guys know that bad trips are extremely uncommon it's more likely that you are going to have a positive experience or at the very least it's more likely that well not every trip is 100% positive sometimes there's dark and light aspects to every experience but it's more likely that you're going to find more lights you're going to find more positivity in your experience than negativity I wanted to point that out because I don't want this video to scare anyone away from using psychedelics I want to display psychedelics in the most accurate light possible and in order to do that I have to touch on both the positive aspects of them and the negative aspects of them because if we're being realistic there have been cases of people doing say mushrooms or LSD and afterwards their life has been much much worse than before they took it fortunately for you watching I'm the kind of psychonaut who likes to experience every aspect of psychedelics so I have my fair share of terrifying trips I had one trip that was so scary that I didn't take a psychedelic again for a solid year I've been to hell and back again so I can share with you guys my tale and hopefully help some of you guys out recovering or avoiding these experiences from happening to you when I experienced my trip which i've made a video about called suicidal shroom trip that was actually my first really terrifying trip now I had had scary trips before I faced my own death on DMT before but that was the very first time that I felt genuinely suicidal from a psychedelic that trip actually caused a massive snowball effect where in every experience I had after that one progressively got worse and worse and it got to the point where because of the one bad trip I programmed my mind to be more paranoid and more scared so then every trip I had after that I was worried and I was anxious and I was thinking well what if that happens again and because my thoughts were going to that direction of course you get what you're afraid of and all of my trips preceding that started to get really dark terrifying and scary sometimes we have a difficult time admitting to ourselves what we are truly deeply afraid of and psychedelics specifically ones like psilocybin mushrooms are experts at showing us our deepest darkest fears and making us face them without anywhere to turn to they showed me that I've always been a coward sure I can see the silver lining in situations but that doesn't mean that I don't first try to run from problems instead of facing them I used to use things like cigarettes and alcohol to help me run from my problems I used to try to mask my sadness by you know experiencing artificial highs I'm very thankful that I chose to face the fear but facing my fears took more than just you know facing my fear of a bad trip and tripping again I had to really get underneath the surface and really dig deep down and find well first I had to find what it was that the psychedelics were showing me that I was running from and I mean it sounds stupid like it should be so easy we should know what we're afraid of but sometimes we are so good at lying to ourselves we don't even know ourselves what it is that we've been running from the recipe for healing from one of these traumatic trips is actually time and understanding you need an adequate amount of time to gain a greater understanding eventually I came to terms with what my fears were I was afraid of losing my mind on psychedelics I was afraid I was going to have a trip and I would never come back and I was afraid that I just you know lose my mind in everyday life I've always had this underlying fear of schizophrenia even before trying psychedelics I had this fear of just well yeah that was my biggest fear was losing my mind so you think like yeah why would I use psychedelics when that's literally what my fear is it's almost like I was subconsciously trying to make me face my own fear head-on from the get-go another fear I had was that I was going to trip and end up killing myself another fear I had was that I was going to be alone this is a fear that I've had my entire life since being very young I was afraid that I was never going to meet say a partner that I got along with I was never going to find love I was going to spend my life alone and miserable I was deathly afraid that there was eternal nothingness after this life ended I was afraid that you know all of my oh maybe there's another realm to go to wishful thinking was really just that it was wishful thinking and really this life is all you get I was afraid that yeah after finally accepting what all of my fears were I then proceeded to safely have a trip but I made sure that I followed every precaution possible I was sure to have benzos handy and in case I needed to escape my mind I was sure that I was in the most comfortable setting possible I was sure that I had a trip sitter I was sure that my dosage was adequate and not too powerful and then I went into the experience with the intent to lose my mind I went into the experience with the intent to face potential suicidal thoughts and to see how I would deal with them and it wasn't easy it wasn't like I just made it out of that trip alive and then I was like you know I'm healed it was more like I made it out of that trip alive with an even bigger laundry list of things I needed to fix it helped me get even or deep into what the core issues were it helped me get to the very root of my problems the reason I was afraid of going insane was because I didn't trust my own mind and the reason that I was afraid I would say kill myself on psychedelics was because I lacked discipline I didn't spend enough time following through with what I told myself I should be doing I spent way too much time procrastinating I had too much negative self-talk I'd say things like okay tonight you're going to work out and then I would skip my workout and what we don't realize is when we spend say a lifetime constantly making promises to ourselves and then disobeying those promises and you know always coming up with excuses to take the comfortable route and talking ourselves out of doing what we know is going to make us feel satisfied and bring us happiness even if temporarily it's going to make us uncomfortable when you spend your whole life just lying to yourself no shit you're not going to trust your thoughts no shit you're going to have a psychedelic experience where you're going to be afraid that you're going to do something that you regret because you don't even trust your mind when you sober so how are you going to trust your mind when you've lost it psychedelics just won't have it they are going to take your lies and they're going to show you them and they're gonna make you see how much of a fucking asshole you've been to yourself and they're gonna make you try to spin that around and learn and grow and become a better person through it what I was lacking in was discipline which I think a lot of people especially in the Western world lack and a lot of people don't have such a tough love type of teacher like psilocybin mushrooms to really show them where they're going wrong in life and for that I'm grateful I'm grateful that I stumbled onto psychedelics and through these experiences I have healed a lot of my sadness in life I've healed and I've overcome a lot of fears I'm not saying that I'm perfect now none of us are perfect we all have quirky things and we all have fears it's more so just reaching a point where you are comfortable and confident and a point where you can just accept yourself for who you are are and you're not spending so much time comparing yourself to others and always trying to reach this ideal that that is just impossible I had the problem of being a perfectionist I never thought that what I did was good enough and even to this day I still suffer from the sometimes I make videos and it's very rare that I look at a video and I'm like I am so happy with how that video turned out no I always think I can improve which in a sense is good it's good to constantly be learning and constantly improving but it becomes negative and more destructive when you start only focusing on the bad parts and you don't realize the good now some people have terrifying bad trips from psychedelics like say the ones that I've had but instead of using those experiences to catapult them you know head-on to face their problems what they do is they start running from their problems more and they start having a very negative experience in life because of that I guess what I really want to say with this video is that I'm proof that you can be extremely challenged to the point of a suicidal trip and you can use those bad trips to heal you can use those bad trips to learn and to grow from I often say that the bad trips although at the time are can be shattering to your psyche but those are the ones that you're going to learn the most and that you're going to benefit the most from in the long run as long as you take the time to integrate the experience and as long as you accept that there might just be some aspects of yourself that are ugly and need to change anyway that concludes this video I hope you guys all enjoyed it if you did enjoy this video be sure to leave a big thumbs up and if you haven't already subscribe to our channel for weekly psychedelic related content till next time take care everyone be safe always test your substances and yeah I will see you guys soon sayonara a huge shout-out to everyone who's supporting us on patreon right now if you would like to learn more about patreon you can follow the link and you can learn more there till next time stay safe everyone and don't do anything that I would not do take care guys


29 Comments

emilyswift · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

HELP! I did LSD 3 months ago for the first time at a party. Its was the worst thing I have ever done. I felt anxiety and depression like I had NEVER felt before. Now 2 moths later, I have bad depression. Like just this awful feeling of hopelessness that I experienced while on LSD. I cant figure out what to do. Do I wait it out and see if it gets better or do I do it again and hope its a good trip and reverses everything? Its so scary. I was always the happiest person and now im just depressed and feeling hopeless all the time… I need advice

FabeStar · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Man, i appreciate everyone with the positive message cause I’m in a bad trip and feel hopeless. I can’t focus on anything and i keep predicting stuff to happen. I feel like i opened a portal in my brain that shouldn’t be open. Like I’m overthinking everything. Questioning everything i come across. This is my second bad trip but this one is way worse cause I’m at a very emotional state. Wish me the best.

spidertastic · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

This video helped me so much thank you

Markuss Petrausks · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

i swear to god all these how to stop bad trips videos gotta stop having those freaky thumbnails lol

Paige Smith · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I've lied to myself so much i have no idea who the fuck i am

Paige Smith · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Please i had a really bad trip on weed and I've kinda stopped using it because i now get the same exact high and i feel terrified about everything

Mike trapoyer trapp · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I took 4 grams dried mushrooms(most I've took prior to this was 2.5g) , ground soaked in apple juice for 30 minutes
It hit me in 17 minutes. Everything was alive I felt like I was aware of, whatever is responsible for this universe and it scared the shit out of me. I managed to accept that there are powers at play guiding me through this life. Once I accepted them for what they were I started to calm down and have a very pleasurable trip. It's only a week later and I'm feeling great.

jim jock · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I'm afraid too 🙁 I wanna kill my self after dxm trip

Kaylee G · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I struggle with really bad anxiety. I’ve been smoking weed for a few years and lately it has only been making my anxiety worse. I’ve been thinking about doing acid for a while with a few friends but I’m terrified I might have a bad trip because of my anxiety. Any thoughts?

David U · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

How about just don't do it again :/

It's not always "trusting your mind" , it can also be the state of mind you're in and the people who are around you, that's what gave me a bad trip which I didn't even know existed at the time…but yeah if you're sad, stressed, and so on can highly affect you in that state.

Usha Shahi · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Can bad trip occur in dose as low as 100 ug?

Mutiniez · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Ya the night I decided I wanted to try acid my mom freaked out later that night now I feel sicker than shit

meh nah · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Generally will you be better after using psychedelics?

Alfonday · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I had the best trip of my life recently. It’s was on a very small dose (80mg) I got about 5 hours in and it started becoming bad. It wasn’t unbearable but more just uncomfortable and I wanted to at least be sober. Recently I’ve been feeling paranoid that this trip might have changed me.

toe bear · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

tried shrooms recently and it was fuckin terrible, and i realize 100% it was my fault bc i wasn't in a good setting or any of that shit, but i haven't felt 'normal' for a single second since then. it triggered my emetophobia and now i cant eat or sleep regularly or go out in public or hang out with my friends without feeling an immense amount of anxiety followed by the growing feeling of getting sick. i just want to be normal again 🙁

NadaMoheeb · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Thank you so much for this video you gave me so much hope to survive

Mary G · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Shrooms made me see no point in existing or anything existing

L34DR4iN · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Yup when shit starts getting weird you gotta convince yourself with confidence that you dont feel none of that shit and go back to having a good time.😊 If it gets worse just start flipping nearby objects and naming them. Take your time you just need a little more time. Dont think about the past focus on something that your gonna be enjoying in the near future.

Dizzyglow55 · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

When I had a bad trip I got really suicidal and felt as if I was dead and time went soooo slow

DJ S · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Yup. Had the skitzo trip to hell on my last trip. Since then I've been quite worried about skizophrenia. But I still want to trip… I really needed this video as I will have some this friday

DinK · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I would like to share my trip experience from last night as it was a extremely terrible one.
The night before i had taken two quarter's of a tab 30 mins apart and had a wonderful euphoric experience where it felt it was literally impossible for me to have a bad trip, yes i seriously believed that after my first few trips. Last night completely ruined that. Considering i had taking half a tab that night before, which had effectively raised my tolerance on LSD, i had thought i'd take two tabs instead of one. The people i was around were friends i have known for around 4 years, two of those three people i had tripped with for my first ever psychedelic experience. We were watching Pain&Gain on a projector screen when the third person started doing cocaine, which caused him to sniffle a LOT. This kept tricking my brain into thinking he was crying and made my thoughts travel to an uncomfortable zone. I quickly gained control of my environment and suggested that it was time for me to start heading home. Things were going well at first in the car until he started sniffling again, and being that my thoughts were already in an uncomfortable area i was hearing voices in such which i was unable to differentiate from the real world. Another sniff, and i heard "ohh Trey….", (My name), and this was the time my mind instantly shot my head up and grabbed his arm uncontrollably (I was in the passenger seat) and screamed "NO NO NO, DON'T TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL, I'M NOT DYING!" and nearly swerved us off the road. At this point i was no longer connected with who i was and where i was. When i arrived home i had still no idea where i was. Still finding my way to my bed to lay down i believed that once i fell asleep that it was the end. That i was going to die and i was doing nothing but praying to god to take these thoughts away. Lesson here is your environment truly is WAY more important than having a trip sitter. I hope my story is easy to understand why i ended with such a terrible experience, and Im sorry if it's not clearly written. And remember, have a good trip. 🙂

nippu nagaraj · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

is this me myself?

ParadoX 0 · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Paranoia always hugs me

Nikki Steph · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

At 6:05 what does he say? I was sure to have WHAT ready to escape my mind or what

Mike Frezza · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

This sucks

Two Sides of Gaming · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I just wanted the movie trailer….

Alyssa Gonzales · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

Watching this while having a bad trip, thaaank youuuu 🦋

Abraham Anthony · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

bad trips are caused by taking to much…thats my theory

Darius Moldovan · July 30, 2019 at 8:44 pm

I stayed 1h30min in a park with my friend because i was too high to go home to my mom.

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