I NEED to Explain – Lessons Learned Traveling Alone on ALASKA Trip

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What’s up Story Chasers well this video
is going to be about the lessons I learned traveling solo to Alaska
but first I think I need to do a little bit of explaining. So I left Whitehorse Canada and I made my way back
down south but I was still in this major funk. So in my last video I was talking
about some of the things that I was going through and the emotional things
that I was feeling and I still just could not shake it so in all honesty I
just didn’t feel like filming or even being on camera so what you’re going to
see is me traveling from Whitehorse down to Leadville Colorado and everything in
between part of the reason I didn’t want to be
on camera is because of my weight gain and you guys might have noticed it over
the last couple of months I noticed it when I was editing my videos and it was
a difficult thing for me to even edit my videos because I was seeing this weight
gain and I was just feeling very upset with myself and angry and frustrated and
you know this is not something that I’ve really talked to you guys about
I do have an eating disorder I’m an emotional eater and there’s some things
that trigger it but a lot of times it’s when I’m in high-stress situations or
tension that I kind of fall back into old patterns one of the things that I
don’t do is I don’t do diets anymore it’s been several years since I decided
to stop doing diets but I need to have this balance right and sometimes my
balance just isn’t there and this was one of those times which is why I didn’t
even want to be on camera and I know there’s a lot of you out
there who really support me and don’t judge me there’s several people out
there who do because there has been comments and stuff on my youtube channel
which is really kind of sad to be honest with you that people feel like they have
to make comments about someone’s physical appearance but nonetheless I
was judging myself I think and feeling like oh my god these people are gonna
see my weight gain on here and I was just feeling really sad about the whole
situation to be honest with you and trying to understand why I was in this
place again where wasn’t able to control what I was doing with my eating and
balance my weight it’s one of those things
that’s just really really hard for me to even discuss which is why you guys have
not heard me talk about it before on my channel but I’ve decided to just open up
about it and maybe this can help somebody else out there and some of the
struggles that they’re dealing with but I think I finally have things under
control again I’m in a much better spot and I’m happier now I am starting he
didn’t lose weight again which is good okay so let’s get back to the video and
the lessons that I learned while traveling solo to Alaska and hopefully
you guys can learn a little bit from this even if you are a couple traveling
just know that some of these things can still apply to you next up is Jasper
National Park in Alberta Canada this place is just breathtaking and the water
is this brilliant green glass color sometimes a little blue I ended up
staying here only one night just across from the columbia icefields and dang
what a view that was it was so beautiful one of the lessons I learned on this
trip is that I overextended myself with work and travel driving 7,000 miles
round-trip as a solo traveler and one and a half months while operating a
business and the new nomad mentorship bootcamp course was just super
challenging for me I don’t even like to drive that much even though I live in a
van as some of you might think that I like to drive because I do live in a van
but I don’t want to drive that much 7,000 miles
in a very short amount of time is just nuts in my opinion consequently I was
just extremely tired and needed some rest I ended up getting a hotel room when I
was in Spokane Washington I was there to see clients for a couple of days and
well a couple of days turned into about 10 days of living in the hotel room I
just needed to decompress and sleep and not move that was my other lesson
learned traveling solo and working you have to do everything drive work travel
film and then do it all over again look I’m not complaining I have a very
good life I just didn’t manage my time or my
self-care very well so I was exhausted I finally left Spokane Washington to make
my way to Colorado and join some friends I felt so much more relaxed after my
ten-day hotel stay and now it was time to get back to some nature Dylan Montana was first on my list and
my resting place for the night at Clarke Canyon Reservoir what a beautiful area I
had never been here before it was exactly what I needed to continue my
healing of my funk and getting some rest my other lesson
learned was that I’m reminded that I need to continue slowing it down and not
take so many huge leaps I put so much pressure on myself to get things down in
my business that it just all came crashing down around me I even
questioned what I was doing am I on the right path should I continue making
YouTube videos and vlogging I mean I seriously considered that maybe I should
just blog and take photos and give up the YouTube channel but at the end of
the day I love it and I love sharing this life with you all and interacting
with you and also hopefully providing some inspiration to you guys on a living
in a non-traditional minimalist life I can see how you might be thinking that
he or she is stressed out and overextending herself and in this funk
so how can that be inspirational well this is real life and I’m trying to show
you all the good stuff about this life but also the real life issues that
happen and get as well you all need to see both sides
to it most of the time I’m pinching myself about how amazing my life is but
these last couple of months have thrown me for a loop and I’ve had to overcome
some challenges with a van fire my mental health with my weight gain being
tired the weather driving too much and overextending myself with my business
and my travel I’m very excited to be meeting up with some friends in Colorado
Lilly and I are ready to have some social time and enjoy these cooler
temperatures and Leadville Colorado one of the other lessons I learned was that
throughout all of these challenges things might go wrong like the van fire
and things will break but the kindness of humans to go out of their way to help
you is staggering I mean mark and shea helped me out with putting the fire out
and staying with me Gordon flew up from San Francisco to Alaska to make some
repairs on my van and get me back on the road and Jayson and Hillary let me stay
at their place in Fairbanks to do the repairs I’m just so grateful to everyone
who has helped me part of that lesson learned is that if you need parts really
quickly in Alaska well that’s challenging and and of itself because
it’s Alaska and very far away and it’s hard to get anything overnight it there
so the lesson learned here is that if you think something might need to be
repaired you might want to bring up some supplies with you just in case you can’t
get to them quickly in Alaska thankfully the things that need to be repaired on
my van or things that Gordon could bring with him or the Alaska already had and
we were able to get most of the repairs done
then I’ll do the rest in the lower 48 well we’re in Colorado now and this is
just past fruta it’s beautiful over here just pulled over off to the side to rest
a little bit truck I finally made it to Leadville Colorado
the highest incorporated city in the United States at ten thousand one
hundred and twenty five feet and just in time for the Leadville 100 where people
literally run 100 miles through the Rocky Mountain terrain and are limited
to 30 hours to complete it like that’s staggering to me we were able to cheer
on some of the runners late that evening as they pass by our campsite and I got
to enjoy the company of my fellow our beers on this dark road along the side
of the National Forest waiting for these runners to come by so that we can give
them a little bit of inspiration I seriously loved Leadville they have
some incredible restaurants however the elevation was really getting
to me and I was experiencing some altitude sickness okay guys so that was
my lessons learned traveling solo to Alaska I feel like this is a super
vulnerable video for me because I’ve never really talked about my eating
disorder and just really some of the challenges that I have while I’m doing
this life while I’m traveling and having a business and all of that but I wanted
to be really transparent with you guys and show you what it can be like now you
may not have an eating disorder or you may not have you may not be traveling
solo you may be a couple that’s traveling but some of these things can
still apply to you one of the things that I know that I have to really manage
is my self-care I am that type of person where when I get super busy or super
stressed out you know I dive right into my work and I can work all hours of the
day especially when it’s my own business so stopping and making sure that I take
time for self-care is it sound like a bird or something I was over there and
anyway so stopping to you know make sure that I take care of myself and eat well
and meditate and do yoga and move around and stuff like that is really really
important so in the next two weeks you’re going to see a video that
actually talks about the pros and cons of going to Alaska based on my own
experience and things that I have seen while I was there hopefully that will
help you when you’re deciding to travel to Alaska whether you’re going to drive
or whether you’re going to fly and rent an RV or maybe just air B&B it up there
and guys I am so thankful for you I really really appreciate you guys
reaching out to me some of you have reached out asking how I’m doing making
sure that I’m okay especially because of the van fire and I think you noticed in
my videos that I was a little bit down compared to how I normally am so I
really really appreciate it I’m so grateful to every single one of you
thank you so much so if you like this video go ahead and hit that like button
if you I subscribed already please subscribe it
helps me grow it helps more people see my videos and that’s it until the next
video hey guys next week bye Mele has an aunty
we are soaking her but we’ve got a little bit of a wound we had to go to
the vet and they lanced it


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Kathy Egbert · October 10, 2019 at 5:46 pm

I’m proud of you for being so open and so brave. 💗

David murling · October 10, 2019 at 5:46 pm

The way I look at it, your weight doesn't matter. It's what you are inside is what counts. And you are an awesome person. Happy travels.

Elisabeth Seeger · October 10, 2019 at 5:47 pm

you are GREAT! For me at time like that rest and waiting works -the dark times can pass and life returns-must be hard if you have to post videos

Crystal Clark · October 10, 2019 at 5:54 pm

You are very brave to open up. And you are not alone. Many of us have similar eating struggles. Few of us could have handled all the challenges you have faced for the last three months as gracefully as you. I know I could not have done it. The windshield issue would have ended it for me and you have performed a huge public service by giving us lovely pictures we can enjoy without heading up there. Rest up and give yourself a pat on the back for coming out of it alive and for contributing to better information. You still lead a remarkable life on an alternative path.

Kathy Stevens · October 10, 2019 at 6:06 pm

Do what makes you Happy, otherwise it is not worth it.. ⚘⚘🙋‍♀️

john CHALKER · October 10, 2019 at 6:08 pm

Dear lady story chaser this is John chalker from Waterbury CTthank you should not be worried about your weight we love you just the way you are don't be worried about your weight I am a heavyweight brother too and I understand how you feel I have a channel of my own and I don't worry about my weight

Mary Boggs · October 10, 2019 at 6:09 pm

Right there with you. Not judging. All encouragement and positive thoughts your way.

Magdalen Hewitt · October 10, 2019 at 6:09 pm

Don't normally comment on YouTube….. Just wanted to say that you might want to get your Thyroid checked…. Extreme Exhaustion and weight gain are one of the symptoms of Thyroid issues. Hopefully it's not your Thyroid but it never hurts to get it checked. Good luck and take care…. Great videos!!

Shali Haas · October 10, 2019 at 6:11 pm

Amber, so much in such a short video! Your perspective and videos are super inspiring, stopping would be a real loss!! The fact that you always put everything out there is what makes them so relatable, yeah you are vulnerable, no everything isn't perfect lol but look at this…sunset, tree, lake.
Your weight is only an issue if it is hurting your health, not if some internet troll comments about it. You look fab! Besides, it only makes sense that when you are off balance or uneasy or pushing too hard that everything else: mediation, relaxing, self care, eating patterns all shift to the side and you start feeling worse. Take time to recharge, schedule days off to help make sure you ambertate.

101taiga · October 10, 2019 at 6:12 pm

Hugs to you from @vantasticviews 🤗

SC B · October 10, 2019 at 6:13 pm

So glad your back safe and sound. Take care of yourself!!

Kevin · October 10, 2019 at 6:16 pm

Everybody needs a "Hug" huggs!

Pts Slm · October 10, 2019 at 6:20 pm

Going to Alaska in my RV I’ll take the Alaska inner coastal hyw. Ferry less miles on the RV and I know there are only certain areas I want to go to, I’ve been to Alaska years ago.
You could be surprised Alaska May call you back. There is a saying there about Alaska once you been there it will call you back. 👍🇺🇸

sadiejosiemom · October 10, 2019 at 6:20 pm

You're very brave to make yourself so vulnerable. I admire you for being real. I'm not an RVer but think about doing it a lot. I'm a senior and a widow and though I'm not afraid to be alone in my home, I think I'd be very afraid out on the road alone. Not so much afraid for my safety (though that is a concern) but more so that I'd have vehicle issues and not know what to do. Since my husband passed, whenever anything breaks or goes wrong I have a mini emotional breakdown. Thankfully, I have three sons in the same town who can and do come and rescue me. On the road, I wouldn't have them to rely on. It sounds like your spirit and health is on the mend! Don't come back to California yet though – our gas prices are over $4 again!! LOL!!

Turn It Up World · October 10, 2019 at 6:26 pm

So nice to see your happier Amber. Saw your last video and wish I could have just reached through and gave you a hug. You are such a top notch lady! Glad to know you. Hope we run into each other on the road one of these days. What an amazing trip. Dillon Montana looked incredible. Great place to recollect. I FYI – I was the same. Gained weight due to a sudden move which put me in a funk to the point of binge eating and turning to food which led to my weight gain. I've always been a confident person and knew I could bounce back! Things have been wonderful since we decided to pursue the life of full-time travel.
Keep rocking it Amber and NEVER give up what you love doing for a few tough moments. Those moments are only going to get better and you're going to get stronger. LOVE YA GIRLFRIEND!!!! ❤️ 💕 ❤️

FR3 At Last · October 10, 2019 at 6:30 pm

My weight is up….down…up…down…😂🤦‍♀️😂…it’s life sweetheart. You’re beautiful so just enjoy life without all the worry and stress. Been there, done that. I’m now 68 and wish I had listened to myself. Just live…stop caring about what the nasty comments say, they don’t matter. As the saying goes, A lot of things broke my heart but…it fixed my vision…You got this!💗🌷🚍

laura g · October 10, 2019 at 6:32 pm

You are amazing! Love your openness about your struggles. Don’t let the trolls get to you. You are beautiful inside and out! ❤️

Jill Megan · October 10, 2019 at 6:36 pm

Look up Dr Jason Fung. He puts his patients on alternate day fasts and finding it takes the weight off with little change in diet and it works because your insulin gets a break. it’s not your fault. Our high carb up brining which was suggested by the FDA is the culprit. All those carbs have made most of us insulin resistant. We have insulin floating around – which signals our hunger. So we’re always hungry and slowly making our way towards diabetes. Look up also Jimmy Moore he is working weight loss and opening our eyes! The science provides what is normal functioning – fasting is normal and it’s how our body should be cared for. Hope that’s not too forward. Hope it helps.

Tillie's Travels with Laurie and Abby · October 10, 2019 at 6:37 pm

Thanks for being brave and speaking out about hard things. You take care of yourself. Your videos are so perfect for people like me. Beginner vanlifers. Even this one. Taking care of yourself.making time for those self care measures. Its just do important and one lesson most people need to learn to balance.

Deb Clements · October 10, 2019 at 6:40 pm

Didn’t even notice any weight gain. :). I agree, it is so easy to let self-care go out the window when other seemingly pressing things are calling our name. I, too, work from home and RV 6 mos out of the year…getting ready to head West November 2!!! But I made a conscious decision back in May that I would change my eating habits ( for me it was low carb) and do some sort of exercise M-F. It has made such a difference. Are there days I don’t want to exercise…yes, but I just don’t give my body a vote. My body is not the boss of me! Lol

Claudia Sutherland · October 10, 2019 at 6:58 pm

Sometimes hormones I.e. menopause can cause weight gain. I think you look beautiful and have done amazing things with your life.

Jody's Journey · October 10, 2019 at 6:59 pm

Hang in there, girl. Thank you for your honesty and know that you are not alone. ❤️

Vanda Favaro · October 10, 2019 at 7:00 pm

It hurts to hear you talking so negatively about yourself. Talk to yourself like you would to a good friend. Be honest but kind.
Our weight, especially as women, is so overblown in its importance. We think it indicates our health, happiness, life satisfaction, relationship status, when really it is a small indicator of who and how we are.
No ones life is 100% happiness at all times. But 80% is pretty darn good!! I shoot for the same in my marriage and other areas of my life. If people don’t like it, it’s not their life.
I admire you so much. Please treat my online friend well! ☺️

Oregon Strong · October 10, 2019 at 7:06 pm

Amber it broke my heart to think you have been feeling this way. Seriously you are so very beautiful. We all have our “thing” that we beat ourselves up over. Especially if you are as driven as you are. Please remember how many of us Love your Vids & we think you are wonderful exactly as you are & don’t see what you “see & feel” because we see a Strong driven women who is Beautiful, honest, hard working, Responsible for & to her doggy & who is a 10 in our books~

caseyntrent · October 10, 2019 at 7:13 pm

I am a Youtube watcher but I very rarely comment. I just wanted you to know that I love your videos and you look fabulous! I struggle with my weight and it is a constant battle but I never once watched your videos and thought you looked like you gained weight. Honestly! 🙂

Pamela Fitzpatrick · October 10, 2019 at 7:17 pm

As a single woman planning to start my own RV journey in the Spring, I really appreciate your openness and honesty with all of us. It’s great to get the positives and negatives of full time life on the road. Thank you, Amber, and glad to hear you’re on the upswing!

Pts Slm · October 10, 2019 at 7:17 pm

I was thinking about what you were explaining about weight; I saw an image of you and I think you should get a physical to check out your heart ❤️.
You look like water weight gain to me.
Stress is such an impact on health also. 👍🇺🇸🎚

TheCraftyVegan · October 10, 2019 at 7:18 pm

Thank you so much for your honesty and I am grateful that for whatever reason you decided to continue to do these videos. I know your trip to Alaska wasn't all that you wished it would have been. Maybe it was all that driving instead of taking a slower pace. Maybe it was the fire and all the smoke. Plus I am sure your own fire didn't help. But for someone like me who will probably never get to go to Alaska you have my gratitude for showing me so much beauty. Thats is why I like your channel so much…you show us everything not just telling us where you were and where you are now…you show us. I am sorry you were so down on yourself about your weight and that there are jerks in this world who feel that they have to comment on things that are none of their business. I will be honest that I never really noticed the weight. You are so much more than a number on a scale. Hang in there, I share the trial of living with a eating disorder. No matter what just be good to yourself.

unknown caller · October 10, 2019 at 7:18 pm

I just stumble on your page by accident a few months ago and the last thing I was worried about was your weight… I was surprised and shocked that you do all of this traveling on your own and I want even go a state over let along by myself. Keep up the videos I like traveling and seeing places without living home and when I am bored. Love yourself first and forget what other people think of weight all that matters is if you are happy with yourself. We as viewers are not here to judge we are excited to go on the adventures wherever it make take you Ms Amber, ty again for allowing us on the ride with you.

Shawnee · October 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

Take time to smell the roses or whats the point, Slow down and take time for you. Enjoy life, it goes by so fast.

Stephanie Smythe · October 10, 2019 at 7:38 pm

Thank you for a wonderful video, Amber. Best healing wishes to you. You spoke many truths pertinent to my own life, and very short (thus far) experience in my van. Pacing, self care, respect for self, don't let the goals/obligations/imaginations hijack you. Oh yeah. And while its never yet been true that food fixes my life, I do keep rerunning that experiment just to be sure. (If you're not familiar with the work of Geneen Roth on food and self care, I highly recommend her work). Cheers and thanks again!

judi wilson · October 10, 2019 at 7:38 pm

Hi Amber…sorry you went thru funk..and weight gain..I have issues with my weight also. For it i got a service dog..i couldn't even go into a walmart without thinking people were looking at me and saying "wow she's fat" so the dog took the attention off of me and put it on him…and proof is in the pudding..some lady came up to me and asked "weren't you at big lots the other day..i remember your dog."..with that i was healed! ..i am still over weight 238..wow i am putting it out there! And my dog has retired but he helped me get to this mind set..it take all types of people to make the world go round.. yes i would love to be skinny but i would settle for strong in body and mind..I am on my way ..swimming!!!…but thank you for sharing with us …I think if I go to alaska it will be on a boat!!!…fyi for the newbies out there I watched all of you videos of alaska and didnt even know who you were…maybe just a hi Amber here!!!…so we can put a name with your beautiful face…love watching keep up great work!

Chef Santa · October 10, 2019 at 7:55 pm

Wow you got some beautiful footage, and as far as peoples comment I did something it's about 3 months now 4 months now I have started doing my life with the premise of "You Do You" & "Me Do Me" I am worrying about myself don't care what people say for instance I'm on the Keto lifestyle way of eating, I enjoy it and there's days that I will eat a regular pizza not a cauliflower crust a real New York Italian greasy pizza or a sub sandwich because I'm 65 years old I don't know how long I have but for the most part I watch what I eat but I know that I'm not gonna let anyone tell me you can eat that or you shouldn't eat that so on my channel most of the food is KETO but in the same respect someone asked me how do you make old fashioned potato soup I'm gonna tell them this is how I make it I'm not telling you to get on a keto diet I'm just telling you enjoy life do what makes you happy in other words *you do you "👍👍 with all that said I've never met you in person I hope one day when I do get on the road to run into you in this great land of hours and have a meal or even a Cup of coffee but I will tell you this just from my vast years of age LoL😁 you are beautiful inside and out. Stay safe stay strong stay healthy.
✌❤✝💪👍🎅🤙🚍🚌🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 PS I may start a new channel call >>>>>You DoYou ?????

gsk1519 MO · October 10, 2019 at 7:55 pm

Glad to see you are starting to get out of the funk I noticed the last couple of months. Was considering unsubscribing but now will wait and see. I liked your earlier videos where you were more upbeat. (I view YouTube for upbeat entertainment or for a laugh)

TheKatyQ · October 10, 2019 at 7:55 pm

I was hoping you were able to overcome your funk. I get that way some times and a change of scenery and attitude always helps me. Safe travels and enjoy your life . Your beautiful life.

Missouri Traveler · October 10, 2019 at 7:57 pm

Keep up you're good work hold your head UP

Where is Tiffany · October 10, 2019 at 8:03 pm

Oh, sweet girl, you are a beautiful person inside and out. 😄 I've too gained a little weight so I can relate but don't worry we'll loose it! BTW, you're an amazing storyteller. I love your videos!

Mae Mae · October 10, 2019 at 8:30 pm

Amber – you are a beautiful, strong, confident and brave woman. And be thankful for a body that lets you be all that. My whole life I let my weight limit me. Now I weigh less, but have other issues that limit me. My biggest regret is that I didn’t appreciate what my body could DO when I was younger. Instead of embracing my strength and energy and flexibility, I stressed over society’s judgement of my appearance. I’d take the weight back in a heartbeat if I could have my strength and health back that I had then. Also, WOW, on your Jasper pictures and beautiful editing!

Lois Elsensohn · October 10, 2019 at 8:41 pm

Wow! I never noticed weight gain! I don't judge people's bodies, so I don't look to criticize. There is nothing wrong with staying in a hotel every once in awhile. Especially since you had gone through some trauma with the Nomads/ single man murders. Very scary and stressful situation for sure. It's nice to see you in Colorado!!❤🌻🦚🐾 Your really Sweet, and I so enjoy your videos…Your Life! You are really Brave! I hope to be Brave like you down the line…Right now I live in my Class C 31 foot Conquest Gulf Stream by a Lake.😊

csimon1951 · October 10, 2019 at 8:42 pm

Right there with you! But your on the right track and that’s what really matters!

theresa podrebarac · October 10, 2019 at 8:52 pm

Everything you said resonated with me. You are very courageous to be vulnerable with how you are feeling. So glad you are with friends & you are able to find some balance in your life. We, your community has your back & we are here for the ups & downs.

Gypsy Woman · October 10, 2019 at 8:52 pm

Amber – thanks for being so transparent with your audience. Rest is critical to good mental and emotional health. Sounds like you are learning that and that is good. Something that helps me a lot is to walk at least 30 minutes a day – it is a natural depression reliever for me. I use the walking time to pray and/or say all the things I am grateful for. You are a lovely young lady. Be good to yourself. Take some pressure off yourself. Slow down honey……💖💖💖💖💖

Dennis Bosworth · October 10, 2019 at 8:53 pm

The fact is, you are a beautiful young lady (and a really neat person) – no question there, but finding and keeping your natural weight is an important health factor. You are certainly not alone as there are so many of us in the same boat. Personally, I think disciplined diets are a waste of time and effort. It is like holding your hand straight out ahead of you – sure that is easy to do for a while, but as time moves on, that hand gets heavier and heavier, and eventually you must drop your arm – or in this case: abandon the diet. As for me, I need to loose about 40 pounds and I'm trying to find a diet that does not require discipline … something that I can happily live with for the rest of my life. It is a personal thing, and not likely something I will find in a commercial container. But like you, I've been so occupied dealing with my various projects, I've been neglecting this part of my life. Thank you, Amber for sharing this aspect of your life, and drawing my attention back to my own health needs. Good luck to you in dealing with this.

Wandering Violet · October 10, 2019 at 9:14 pm

Generous, heartfelt, brave, honest, open – nothing short of AMAZING for doing what you are doing. I kindly thank you for sharing. Keep taking care of you!

Rodolfo Tenorio · October 10, 2019 at 9:40 pm

It's not your fault, impossible to control when food companies pack the food with sugar and high fructose corn syrup. Sugar is the enemy, fruit is not your friend. Protein and good fat are your friends and you'll never be hungry, not a diet, a lifestyle.😀😀👍👍

Traci Berry · October 10, 2019 at 9:42 pm

Thank you for being real. Please take care of yourself – you matter.

Elisabeth Englin · October 10, 2019 at 9:43 pm

First of all, you are beautiful. Second of all, you are such an inspiration. You are strong, fun, wise, and worthy of all good things coming your way. It is also strong of you to show your vulnerability. That can be scary but also empowering. It kind of showed you weren't comfortable up in Alaska. Please dont pressure your self doing things that your heart is not in to, be kind to your self and find strength together and in tune with your soul. You rock, and i hope you can see all the positive things you share with all of us. Colorado seems like a million buck, one day, i will go over the "pond" to explore, and you are one of the inspirations for me, that shows the beautiful and adventures things about your country. Take care, and dont be hard on your self. <3

Micki Chikwinya · October 10, 2019 at 9:51 pm

Yeah, Alaska is not on my list because I don't think I can do it by myself driving in the short months available to complete. Glad you were able to experience it. I have some of the same issues and have to continually remind myself to slow down and not over commit. Thank you for the video.

Peggy Boyd · October 10, 2019 at 9:56 pm

We are the hardest on ourselves. Self-care should be prioritized as a daily affirmation in your life. Pace yourself. We forget how busy just taking care of our individual selves is a piece of work.

WESTERGARD 6 · October 10, 2019 at 9:58 pm

YOU are BEAUTIFUL !!! U R so inspirational doing and sharing your trip with everyone!! U R a HERO🧡🧡😎😎

Tara Charney · October 10, 2019 at 10:26 pm

You are looking much brighter! Thanks for your honesty. Even in a house I have found it is important for me to stick to a good routine, especially morning and evening. As long as you are eating well and getting appropriate physical activity don’t worry about the scale. You’re doing great! Safe travels. Scratches to Lily, hope she heals quickly.

Cocominga Handmade Cards · October 10, 2019 at 10:41 pm

I think your great and brave and beautiful. I support you 100%. Ugh my weight, I’m right there with you.

Tygerlady99 · October 10, 2019 at 10:51 pm

I have to say, I did not notice any weight gain. I was just watching you doing your Alaska adventure. However, I can relate, so don't be too hard on yourself.

Keri · October 10, 2019 at 10:56 pm

There are a lot of us that love you. It was sooooo great to see you in Leadville!

Another reason that I continue to love your channel: your genuine content. You are such a kick-ass lady, and it's such a pleasure to know you. And it's completely your fault that I'm coming up on a YEAR traveling full-time, now in a van, and loving it so much. 🙂

Alaska's a hard place to visit! It's not as pleasant as all the photos make it out to be. When it's warm, it's smokey, and when it's not warm, it's cold and cloudy and wet and overrun with mosquitos. I don't miss my home state, but I'm glad you got to enjoy Valdez and some other beautiful places.

Jim Brown · October 10, 2019 at 10:58 pm

Amb! We love you JUST the way you ARE! I'm traveling solo now, too, so appreciate the input. You mentioned eating disorder and it made me jump to the fridge for a couple fudge graham cookies! I think I got a disorder, too!

I hate driving more than 3 hours … of course, I'm retired.

I AIN'T goin' to Alaska!! TOO FAR AWAY!!

Folksblogen · October 10, 2019 at 11:00 pm

Your heart on your sleeve! We know that living in a van ISN'T the easy way to live. So proud of your frank and honest talk. We're always around if you need to chat. Love you girl!

Keri · October 10, 2019 at 11:02 pm

Just going to post it again. Love you Amber! Thank you for everything!

swamp dawg · October 10, 2019 at 11:13 pm

Life is hard, don’t be hard on yourself, take it easy and be well, you are a good person. I enjoy your videos. 👍😃

Heather Lucero · October 10, 2019 at 11:32 pm

Thank you for your courage in sharing. You’re a beautiful giving person! No one can take that away from you! Thanks for being you! ☺️

Exploring RV Dude · October 10, 2019 at 11:53 pm

Good for you for talking about yourself personally. As someone who also tries to put himself in front of the camera, I can relate to the awkward sense of seeing yourself under all kinds of conditions and not be self-critical.

Amy Taylor · October 11, 2019 at 12:21 am

You are a beautiful person, don’t let the negativity get eat you down. I struggle and like you I am an emotional eater as well. Been in the same funk lately. Thanks for all the beautiful videos of Alaska.

RV Legal Eagle & Paws · October 11, 2019 at 12:27 am

If I may make a suggestion to not only lose some weight but more much importantly to sharpen your brain and improve your overall health for free:) Go watch "DR BOZ" on youtube and start the ketogentic lifestyle:) Good luck and have a great day!

Nomadic Life with Morningforest · October 11, 2019 at 12:42 am

Be yourself and that totally free shoe sorry you’re struggling with hard times enjoy your journey that’s what it’s all about enjoy the time that you have in your travels✌️😁

joanne d · October 11, 2019 at 12:43 am

Hang in there… and Lilly, too! You sound as though you are back on the right path again physically and spiritually… Way to go 🙂

Anne Pasek · October 11, 2019 at 12:46 am

Transparency is the key Amber to connect with subscribers. Love your vlogs (thanks to 30 And A Wake Up) keep sharing & exploring but NEVER forget to do self-care no matter what👍❤

pupcamper58 · October 11, 2019 at 12:52 am

Take care of you! We all have our down in the dumps times!👍❤️

Dennis ODay · October 11, 2019 at 12:53 am

You are a very beautiful woman! And very brave!

Ali Gator · October 11, 2019 at 1:01 am

Thank you for being real and honest with us! It’s a reminder that we all have something we’re struggling with. You are an inspiration in many ways💛
I look forward to your videos every Thursday to see your adventures, and also because I find them very soothing.
Love your peaceful energy. Hugs🌺

Erin C · October 11, 2019 at 1:04 am

Thanks for sharing! You are an absolutely beautiful woman inside and out. I’m a full-time working nomad too and it’s not always easy to live, work and travel on the road. Your honesty is appreciated and refreshing. ❤️☺️💕

David Gabrie · October 11, 2019 at 1:26 am

Hey Amber, you are only human and ups and downs are a natural part of living. I too have lost a lot of weight and gained half of it back, so we start over again…I believe part of the reason we gain is that we all experience stress in our lives. The thing is…we cannot beat ourselves up over it. You are perfect as I am the way we are, it’s just that we would like to be a little lighter because we will feel better about ourselves.

Now, we have to be very careful…the holidays are fast approaching and you know what that means…my weight gain started at Thanksgiving last year. I’ll be very careful about what I eat and will try to be more active. I am sure a lot of your subscribers have weight issues too…could there be a support group through them, I don’t know. All I gotta say…..is this:

I accept you for who you are this very minute…and I will support you at whatever stage you find yourself at any given time. That is what friends do for each other. But because we both want to lose weight, and feel great about ourselves….I offer encouragment on every time we do something to get ourselves pointed in that direction.

Wishing you all the best….do what you feel like and go towards the directions that will make you happy because you deserve it.

Dave

William H · October 11, 2019 at 1:30 am

I didn’t notice the weight gain. You still look great !

maitilda mcintyre · October 11, 2019 at 1:34 am

Just found your channel and subbed. Love your honesty and can’t wait to see more. I too will be a solo traveler when I hit the road. I really want to go to Alaska so I’m looking forward to seeing more about that. You’re incredibly brave to share your life and have a channel. I’m certain many people including myself can relate to your weight struggles and forgetting to make self care a priority. Thanks for the reminder. Happy and safe travels.

Jeannie Anton · October 11, 2019 at 1:36 am

You are a beautiful girl! You got this!

Next To Nolan · October 11, 2019 at 1:41 am

People judging, have obviously never HAD a weight challenge before. I feel ya sista. I can sense a kind soul, and enjoy the peace and practical helpful information that comes from you and your channel. As a fellow emotional grazer here (50 lbs. over still, but lost 20 lbs, recently), I have discovered a new way to eat, thanks to a book I re-discovered; originally I read it over 5 years ago, It's titled. .."The 100" by Jorge Cruise. It's a scientific study about how the body stores fat and metabolises carbs and sugars particularly. It also shows a history of how our food supply chain changed through the decades and even centuries to the food that has led to our systemic weight challenged society today. It is NOT calories in calories out. That's misinformation we have been taught these last four plus decades. It's a great read, and may be of help to you for this part of your journey. I encourage you with a saying a friend motivated me with… "Those that mind don't matter, and those that matter don't mind". Rock on with your soul sister. Thanks for being real, and being you.

Susan S · October 11, 2019 at 1:48 am

Happy to see you!!! Noticed you drove I-70 Glenwood Canyon. For some reason Tala our Alaskan Klee Kai has an anxiety attack when ever we drive that. All other times she is our expert co-pilot!!

Philip Tarnaski · October 11, 2019 at 1:51 am

As always Thanks for sharing your travels! Take care.

Jeannie Anton · October 11, 2019 at 1:52 am

I lived in Silt Colorado for 10 years. (About 45 mins from Fruita) I’m now(past 2 years )in SC near Hilton Head. Love your adventures and videos.

Y C · October 11, 2019 at 1:53 am

That was brave…and appreciated. Thank you.

NoseworkPudel · October 11, 2019 at 1:58 am

Hey Amber! Welcome back to the lower 48 😊. You seem much more relaxed on this video. I think when we get overwhelmed, we need a “recharge and refresh” of some sort. A hotel room and stopping for several days was just the thing for you. I’m so glad you’ve made it back safely. I was JUST in Leadville at the very end of July for a dog trial. High Mountain Pies has awesome pizza, doesn’t it? Yummy! The dogs thought so too 🤣. The town is gorgeous. I camped (in my van) down by Turquoise Lake. I came up a few days before the trial to make sure I was acclimated as I was coming from Iowa (only 800+ feet). I was fine other than the breathing – there’s no air up there! LOL. Looking forward to more videos. – Marsha

Mtn Dreams · October 11, 2019 at 1:59 am

Revealing your vulnerabilities makes you more relatable in my book. Thank you for that❣

RyRy Wags · October 11, 2019 at 2:13 am

Man, such a challenging thing/subject to share on YouTube, which many don't want to. Thanks for sharing! You are an inspiration to many! ♥️
Love the color of the glacial water!🙂
I had an old high school friend finish that Leadville 100 in under 30hrs this year.

Peggy Luers · October 11, 2019 at 2:17 am

Thank you for sharing your travels and your struggles. Best wishes with continuing to take care of yourself and enjoy safe and amazing travels.

Catch The Lizard · October 11, 2019 at 2:43 am

You are so amazing and strong 🤗 I think this was really brave of you to open up to your audience. Sending u hugs and prayers

AM Check · October 11, 2019 at 3:20 am

Amber, you are an amazing woman! Beautiful on the inside and out. I’m so sorry that you were down but sending you positive energy. Hope you continue to heal and just enjoy your amazing life. Save travels.

Emerald City Epilogue · October 11, 2019 at 4:10 am

Even though I am the one primarily on camera in our videos, I hate looking at myself on video and there have been lots of times when I have chosen to not shoot because of weight gain. I know it isn't something that is fashionable to admit, but I feel ya. Keep at it regardless and take time for self-care. <3<3<3

NICHT DA · October 11, 2019 at 5:47 am

you are beautiful

Nicole P. · October 11, 2019 at 5:54 am

You were right down the road from my home in Spokane. I would have loved to bring you a meal. ♥️

Sharon Steele · October 11, 2019 at 6:19 am

You are very inspiring.. keep up the positive vibes and just make sure you take regular time outs for you. Happy and safe travels to you

ragdolllibby · October 11, 2019 at 6:22 am

If you are still in Colorado, I hope you are finding it healing. Did you do anything to get rid of the altitude sickness? Somehow, I never have that affect me. (Knock on wood.) I'm only at 6800 ft outside of Denver however, have yet to experience issues in the mountains.

Damn haters! Your appearance isn't up for their critique. They are mean and hateful and that will never change. You stay wonderful and know that you are inspiring lots of people!! I know that I look forward to your next adventure. 🙂

Patrick the nomad · October 11, 2019 at 6:32 am

Miss Baldwin, I mentioned some time back …..my 1st solo trip to Alaska in '95 was not a happy time. Since, I've been back 9 times 'n each trip now is FANTASTIC! I'm 74, if I drive a lot, I ain't get'n exercise 'n I put on weight …thus, I…. "make myself" daily go for a 2-3 mile walks in the AM and 45 mins stretching. Pls, don't be so hard on Amber. Remember gramma, "…this too shall pass."

YUP …..there are a few who dish out nasty comments here to make themselves seem real "cool." Ignore them!! …your a gifted lady; I'm sooooooo impressed by your willingness to share private data on travels, your expenses, good advice on who gives great service and what to watch out for…. and your humanness. You go girl …and not allow anythin 'er anyone ta hold you back!!! You're an inspiration! Thanks …for being who YOU are! Blessings!

Ms. M · October 11, 2019 at 8:35 am

The only opinion of you that matters is your own. Everyone is struggling with something. I think you're awesome.

Debbie Fisher · October 11, 2019 at 8:51 am

It was a stressful summer for you. A lot on your plate. You are beautiful

Tominftl ThomasP · October 11, 2019 at 9:05 am

Don’t beat yourself up! We all Love You. Stay healthy.

Terry Apple · October 11, 2019 at 9:39 am

Heck. Even my mom judged me. I realized after growing up that her limiting our food intake was not normal and that she did it because she did not want us fat like her mother was fat. It didn't work. I take after my maternal grandmother and am happy to be like her. She was a gentle and kind soul (who lived to be 93). My mother is still mean at 97….

Kerry Loper · October 11, 2019 at 11:51 am

Amber you are beautiful no matter how much weight you gain or loose. Self care is very important so always make that your first priority first. It has taken me years to find this out and I too struggle with finding time for myself, even still knowing I need to. lol!! Bad habits are hard to break so just keep trying. Safe travels!!!

juliana chandler · October 11, 2019 at 12:05 pm

I think that we are always hardest on ourselves. I understand the weight battle, not easy. You’re beautiful, and I never noticed your weight. 🤗

Cooper’s Mom · October 11, 2019 at 12:19 pm

Sorry you are having a difficult time. Delete the haters…..they hate themselves more than they hate you. Sad state of human nature. Just know you help so many of us!

Mel Frykberg · October 11, 2019 at 12:46 pm

And do those people who think that just because their various personality flaws don't show physically that they or their flaws are any better? Being a vindictive, mean-spirited, self-righteous and sanctimonious hypocrite might not be fattening or high in calories but it makes them stink spiritually.

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