Amberlynn And Becky Are Going On Vacation

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hey guys so it is the next day we have some laundry we have to put away it but I just want to document it is literally storming again if like another tree is gonna fall I can't that's all it's doing this stormy another storm another day here in Kentucky I'm so tired of the storm I'm gonna go crazy baby I think I'm already going pretty easy you guys so I know I heard the vlog I think it's been about 40 minutes and I'm just doing some $1.00 just a little bit of coloring because I kind of want to document this I've I've doubled my dosage of my mood stabilizer I think today is day 5 and I don't know what just came over me I still kind of feel it and it's a little terrifying I don't know if it's from the medicine or what it is but I do want to document this I felt like this rush of anxiety go through me it was very faint but I started to become numb not like physically numb but mentally numb towards everything and everyone and I'm just I was sitting here and I was just like I felt like I didn't care for anyone or anything and it kind of felt like a depressive episode like where I just felt kind of like I don't know it was really weird it almost felt like an out-of-body experience where I was like watching myself feel this way and it's kind of creeping me out and I want to go away because I still kind of feel it and it's like a heavy feeling in my chest it kind of feels like there's like this just this big depressing situation like I just feel like I don't understand it though because I haven't felt like this and I've actually been feeling a little bit better and I don't know if it's environmental or if it's the medicine or medicines making worse so the medicines start working it probably it could have nothing to do with medicine like we we don't know but I just really wanted to like document this moment it was pretty terrifying so I thought I would just turn on the camera and maybe talk it away or something but it just feels so like it almost makes me feel guilty that I feel this way where I'm just feeling numb towards everything and everyone but I know it's like all just like a mental problem at this moment because that's not me I usually feel everything super strongly so it's giving me anxiety that I feel this way so it's like this is like this is this just cycle of just like I don't know it's just not feeling very good at all and it's scary and like I feel like I want to cry but I'm trying to like ignore it and like push it away and push it down okay so Becky was out she had to go help her sister with something and she brought me food this is a veggie burger from this one restaurant what's a cold it's right here wings and rings buffalo wings wings and I really like their veggie burger comes with lettuce tomato I take this mate off but the veggie burger has this like soft stuff I don't know it's pretty good and then I just got potato wedges on the side so I'm gonna eat this and we're going to watch a movie see I don't like tomato so I take it out but there's also cucumber on here usually things come with like pickles but it's cucumber and it adds like a fresh taste which is super delicious so I actually showed you guys this mandala a few videos ago and I wanted to give you an update on it that's what looks I think it looks really really good I love it hey guys so I just wanted to update you from earlier I'm not feeling that like weird numb feeling I'm worse than just like feeling like today is just like a bad day I don't know why I don't know what it's about I feel like it might be in the air and to be honest I don't know I just like I'm agitated and a little Moody and stuff which is weird because I haven't been in a while but I just figured I'd get some fresh air outside still have not been in the pool because I still don't know how I'm gonna get in and out I might like roll in I roll out what's up I don't know Ricky was texting me so he's just I honestly don't know what he's doing but um he's going to a party Becky had to go to the store because she's gonna clean out the trash cans I don't even want to say this but there's Matt gift I have a very bad fear of novels like literally if I see one I will just like almost vomit I don't know what it is so I told her we can just like buy new trash hands because I said something about like one of them is broken or whatever I don't know but I'm talking about the trash cans that are outside our kitchen trash cans because that would be really gross so this might not be everyone's favorite but this is one of my angle isn't that this is one of my most favorite dresses I'm torrid I have ever bought I love the colors I love grey with the floral and it feels like just a very like chill tea set t-shirt oh it is so nice it's thin I'm obsessed this isn't a size four for anyone wondering because I know there are a lot of people who are my size who also like Tori so this is a size four and this is how it fits so it's pretty nice so sadly the purse that I have been using actually decided to break so I'm gonna go back to wearing this the first I'm using now is super small so I can actually fit more stuff in here I'm also going to switch out my wallet finally I'm gonna use this one loves it so I just got done having a little crying moment about an hour ago I cried a lot cuz like I said today is just not my day so I was sitting here and I was just like what could make me so better and I just thought sometimes you need a change of pace so Becky and I decided that's tomorrow we're gonna go on our own little staycation I don't know what you really call it like I don't know the difference between a vacation or a staycation but we're gonna go to Lexington and we're just gonna go stay in a hotel for however long I'm not sure how long but that's what we're gonna do tomorrow and she does have an appointment tomorrow so after her appointment because Eric also has an appointment so we're gonna to drop off Eric and then we're gonna go and we're gonna have fun and we're just gonna do the do and I know you know at this way things are more difficult for me but I'm still gonna do them I'm still gonna try and I don't want to stop live in life just because I'm the size that I am I you know I have been losing a little bit of weight it's not like a lot but I've been losing a little bit of weight so that's good Becky over there is officially down 30 pounds and I'm like I know she's like I can't tell but yeah she's down 30 pounds a lot of people have asked um how's Mikey losing the weight what is she doing like what's her secret honestly she's just eating less she's eating whatever she wants just eating less and I think it's just coming naturally for her she's not like really trying trying but nonetheless I am very proud of her like that's amazing and it's inspirational to me down thirty pounds like who are you because you guys know at her highest she was 297 and as of today she's 267 so I'm just really proud of her and yeah so be proud with me y'all so right now Becky and I are watching movies what was the movie watched before this babe with the drag queens it was everything it was such a dummy now we're watching an instant family which I already saw in theaters so friggin good what do you think of it so far it's great she says and then after this movie I think we should probably start packing yeah she's dreading it but I mean so my because my pack I'm just super like particular I have to choose an outfit then I have to choose the jewelry for the outfit and then it's like this whole thing like it's whatever but anyways I'm also coloring while we watch this hashtag Mon dolla obsessed here's a marker you guys this is a bad habit I have created for myself I keep forgetting to end the vlogs but even if I do it like this I still want to end them I know it's poor I know it's unprofessional but I've never been professional and you all know that but I still hope you guys enjoyed this vlog I'm honestly not sure if I will be vlogging our little staycation slash vacation but you'll have to stick around and see it's just a little a little getaway but I hope you guys enjoyed this video and I'll see you my next one bye


Cecilie Lovise · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Gongrats to Becky. Atleast she is doing something right

Bre Ana · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Wow, she sounds really bothered by the idea that Becky could lose that much weight.
You're supposed to support the ones you love sis.

TGRAM7 · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

If it were anyone else I’d have sympathy for them feeling differently while taking new medicine. But just like her…I’m numb to her bs now.

TGRAM7 · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

I thought she and Becky have “responsibilities” and they don’t just sit around all day. All I see them do is color and eat.

Hyper Toonz · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

“I don’t wanna stop living life”

Girl you’re about to if you don’t start losing 🤭

Jackie B · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Ffs, most mood medications will make you numb for a while, especially at higher dosages. Then you get used to it and it evens out. I'm also on Lamictol and it did the same thing to me. Your brain chemistry is changing, of course you're not going to feel normal for a bit.

The Unboxer · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

To most people eating less is a diet and losing 30 pounds is a success.Good for you Becky.

Christina Simonetti · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Wait. So you’re telling me she can fit in a seat at a movie theater? How the hell…

Holly Bug · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

i dont want to give al anymore views so i unsubbed and now im watching ur videos

anxiety · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Her eyes are so sunken in and black jesus christ!!! 😧 she looks like a fat ass racoon

Ami Suu · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Amberlynn: You guys…depressive…bipolar…counting calories…sItuaTiOn TyPe StUfF… lip smacking …I'm never giving up, you guys. eats fast food after complaining her weight loss doctor didn't give her a 'sustainable' lifestyle

bjeanroi · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Imagine the deep cleaning a hotel room would need after them?
Side note.. I may never stay in a hotel again because of that thought.

bjeanroi · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Didnt she just say like yesterday she doesnt like anything but onions on her burgers

bjeanroi · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Yeah.. Youre a psychopathic narcissist.. We know you don't care about anybody.

Jessica Moore · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Omg if she pulls on that shirt or dress whatever one more time im gonna snap!!!!👿👿👿

puta whore · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

why does she still act like she’s 13 lol

Elle Lucy C · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

So I just got done crying… rly?

Ber Berry · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

Somene get her a muzzle and kill two birds with one stone already….she likes animals abuse right?

Cyan L. · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

It's so sad how she put Becky down at first and then tried to sound all supportive.

Canela26 · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

She needs a vacation from having no life. As in she needs to work on something and get out more. Like no wonder you have all these mental problems all you do is stay indoors all day and do NOTHING. Its cabin fever at its worse. Even if she cant get a job she can still treat loosing weight as her job but ofc shes too lazy to even try that. I really wish youtube wouldnt monetize channels so easily. Im scared for her life.

waluigi · July 30, 2019 at 2:52 pm

People her weight get maggots in their fat folds

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